Burnt out parsnip

That is what AI thinks a burnt out parsnip looks like. 

But what one really looks like is me. Work has had me teetering on the edge for a while being as we have been short-staffed and I have been carrying the brunt on my shoulders. 

But Monday hit differently. Monday one of our staff members who had been on sick for 2 months returned and refused a handover from me noting that she didnt want to be stressed...strike 1...then an email from an academic knocked me over the edge because I had in her opinion made the wrong decision and students were complaining. Strike 2. I saw the email and walked out. I'd had enough. I didnt take her call, I just messaged my boss and then my boyfriend and left. 

J came to pick me up and we went to Borth beach for a walk. It was needed. A walk to make me forget the shit of work. We talked and walked and yesterday I went to the doctors and told them how I felt.

And now. Now I've been signed off work for 2 weeks with work related stress. Doctor also thinks there might be some perimenopausal things happening. So great.

I've told the kids and a few friends know. All are stars. When I rang my boss yesterday she told me that the email had broken her too and that I should take my time off and relax. So I've library books, I've promised the doctor I'd go for a walk every day and I'm trying to stop and breathe. 

Ffi